01/06/2020
I love taking fashion risks. I am most comfortable when I cast aside what is socially acceptable or popular. I am an artist, and my soul rejoices in creating.๐จ๐๏ธ
I'll admit, I've gotten raised eyebrow stares, ๐ ๐ณbut I am comfortable in my skin and my clothing choices.
This has been a life long process, that I continue to work through daily. I've struggled with my self image, my weight (that seems to go up and more than a ruler coaster). ๐ข I've been at my biggest and I've been at my smallest and never felt enough. Never felt beautiful. ๐ค
Something will be said, or not said, and trigger all of the repressed negative self talk, and comments of the past.
Ugly. Fat. Unworthy.
I've stuffed my feelings with food ๐ฎ๐๐ and starved my emotions with drugs ๐ฌ๐.
I've wasted many years of my life so focused on this fleshly shell, when the real issue was my soul, pains and wounds buried deep inside. I pushed aside the very individual that God created me to be.
An artist. ๐จ๐๏ธ
A chaoticly creative woman that sees promise and the world in vivid color. ๐โค๏ธ๐๐๐ญ๐ฆ๐๐๐ฆ๐๐ฆ๐๐๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฆ
I understand my imperfections and my many, many failures.
But I'm not worthless or a failure.
I see all the ways I need to grow, ๐ฑ๐ปbut I also see all the progress that has been done.
I may not see the numbers ๐ฏI'd like to see on the scale ( although I admit, I don't even look ๐ฅด) or what my reflection shows, a little fluffy, โ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธbut dang girl I can rock it ๐ค but no matter what someone may think of me, or negligently state in regards to me, I know who I am. I know my identity.
Uplift each other. Don't focus on their failures, their extra awesome fluffiness or whatever thing that catches your attention.
Girl, love yourself. Wear those suspenders w camouflage it makes your heart sing and you feel comfortable in all the weird, uncoordinated goodness that you are. ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฆโ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธ๐๐๐๏ธ๐๐ฅ๐๐จ
And like oddly eclectic. ๐ and share ๐