02/01/2024
Seven years without hearing your voice or seeing a smile everyday when I came home! It was never a big smile but I knew your real smile when you were happy and I knew the smile you had to force on days that were not good but you did it for me.
Seven years of feeling always missing you so badly. There are days when it is all to much for my brain to comprehend all these emotions and its just to heavy to deal with!
The very reason Fly High Keepsakes even exist is because of her being my driving force! Anyone who truly knows I am not a craft type person and really have no creative sparks! The thoughts of even trying seemed so overwhelming right down to the Math of measuring the chemical ratios 🤨 Oh boy can I make Eric's spin when Math is done by me! I have messed up the math quite a bit. 🤦♀️🤷♀️!
No matter what I would throw my tantrum and say ok I give up! I say alot if stuff and tend to be my own worst critic! There was always a driving force pushing and pushing! 💞💞 I found my own ways to make me more efficient its my way and the way I function! I will continue with this journey and see how much more elevating I can do!
What do I know now that I did not see at all 7 years ago?
I always knew losing you would make my life do a 360 and sadness would be severe - True
Does it get easier? In time my friends the pain becomes less but not without serious emotional highs/lows. Those days still do happen but are less and when they do come it drops me down sliding down a wall in tears the pain is just to great.
I will never not wear the ring I have with your ashes it stays with me on at all times!
I just had to have entire ring redone because the Stone was lost as upset as I was the lady who does my ring already prepared and made a second stone ahead of time she told me to keep in a safe place that I would need it!
She was right! About 4 months ago, I chose new band which was 159.00🙃 Now I was fully prepared to pay but I was charged only 30.00 why because 7 years ago she understood my words when she warned me it will be scuffed and scratched with everyday wear and I said well so be it she will remain there😌
I know you are here, Skylar spotted you this morning a Cardinal yes thats a common sign and those are typical signs she delivers to me, however, this particular cardinal is always in my back yard many times on Pink Hisbiscus branch and you stand right out! We stare at each other and I try to get a picture but typical Terri Lee fashion she avoids any camera at all costs like its Papperazi! No matter how quiet, how much I zoom to catch you p**f your gone! I know its you!
Do you ever question if its a loved one?
Let me say this if you believe and I have been a skeptic and there are still days continue to question now she gets a little pi**ed at me! She knows I just getting overwhelmed with all things that are in the gray area but you give me a nudge!
I am here to pay Tribute one of the best!
I would be totally lying if I acted like I made it to the other side happy and worked through all my pain and grief and Fly High Keepsakes is the product of working through grief!
No way! Fly High Keepsakes is what helps my grief she guides me through throws ideas on my head and gives me a way back to ground myself back to her! She knows I love to help people and thrive best when I help people in big ways! Well it cant get anymore personal than that!
So if you read thus far, thank you!
Thank you for listening!
To my clients that chose me when it could have been any other company, you chose Fly High Keepsakes and I truly an honored! It is what drives me to help you in physical world stay connected to your loved ones! I feel like I make a difference!
Everyone has a story and if we all tried to understand the story , the moral of story would be this:
We are not taught how to grieve! There is no wrong way to grieve and its your journey and anyone who would like to chime in to tell you its been this many years, months etc., All I can to you is you will one day understand and maybe you should just take a seat!
To the ones who are constant support for you after the loss of a loved one and continue that support through all of it are your authentic ones to always keep!
This is pretty much all my pictures of my Mom, I dont have many many she had no idea we snapped! Im grateful for these but wish I had more😟 Last Picture is my new updated ring.
Mom the world is do much colder without you in it! I have nobody to get in trouble with or getting me out of trouble! You were my choice always to hang with over friends because you were my Best Friend!
This is my feelings at year 7 years without you! Today is a day no matter what I do to distract myself from the one of 2 worst days of my life Im always thrown right back to that god dam Hospital and all the trauma of today! So you can all feel this with me!
I hope being this honest about how it feels may help even one person to feel know you are not alone is this! Even thoughit feels it!
