05/11/2026
Motherhood is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. There, I said it.
But loving them? Loving them is the easiest thing I’ve ever done. It’s hard because of the pressure I place on myself to “get it right,” because I only get one chance to make sure they grow up feeling loved, heard, seen, supported—in every single way possible until my last breath.
I think of how lucky I am each morning that I have been able to create a life where I can always put them first over work (to a certain extent, I’m not talking about being closed all the time to play hooky.)
I think of my mom when I was growing up, my sister and her kids, all the other working moms I know that have to rush the precious and little time we have with our kids each and every day just to get to work on time, only to be without them all day and to rush through dinner and bath just to sleep and do it all over again everyday until the weekend.
Yes, I work Monday through Friday and yes, I do have to be at the shop the bulk of the day. But I find myself more mornings than not, easily convinced to just cuddle a little longer, go on the swings for “FIVE MINUTES MAMA”, go on our morning walks around the neighborhood, or take the long way to daycare so we can see the big lake. And the evenings? Especially in the summer, I admit I will do the quickest meal I can so that we can be outside for as long as possible before bed. Beach pizza? Yep, I’m that mom.
Even though motherhood isn’t a cakewalk, I find myself taking mental pictures each day so that I can soak them in, in every phase.
The warm snuggles with feathery hair that tickles my chin. The tiny bouquets. The moments they love each other instead of beating each other and hug or hold hands unprompted. The random kisses my almost 4 year old will run up and give me when least expected. The giggles in the bath. The little gallop running. All of it.
I’m so lucky I don’t have to rush as much as others, even though it still feels like a hamster wheel and my heart hurts when Leo says he doesn’t want to go, he just wants to be with mama and Jack today. 😭 Being their mom is the greatest joy of my life. Happy Mother’s Day ❤️