06/16/2024
My ex-boyfriend (a pill-snorting opiate-addicted freak driving around a red jeep) once asked me why I would choose to live outdoors in the elements rather than stay in the vehicle with him... my answer was that I miss being physically comfortable and not exhausting myself by pushing through my disabilities and getting more pain and injuries from walking on joints with fluid in them and having the sweat make my skin hurt from friction due to over-exertion when I'm not even supposed to be this physically active, but it was better than being with him because he physically abused me sometimes (choking me and punching me in the head, which was once recorded on my phone as well as elbowing me so hard in the stomach I had to seek medical attention) I said I felt safer outside than I did being abused verbally and psychologically everyday, because my new boyfriend doesn't abuse me... Ex-boyfriend chimed in with "he doesn't abuse you YET" implying that everyone I ever meet will someday abuse me. What my psychopathic ex didn't realize is that I have been in non-abusive relationships before, so his suggestion that I will never escape abuse was just a sleight of hand, trying to convince me I will always be abused everywhere, so may as well be indoors... sorry buddy, but unlike you some people have kindness and mercy in their hearts, and they don't choke or punch or elbow-shot against sleeping victims. Keep in mind that is the same ex who said "your only freedom is with me, without me you will be dead or in jail", well he is attempting to make good on that promise by calling the police on my new boyfriend. When I told crap-for-brains JeepFreak that I wouldn't be rewarding his bad behavior, and would remain outside alone until I found out from my boyfriend what happened, the revolting leech ex began making threats against me that he would put a restraining order on me. When I continued to ignore him he threatened to have me arrested. That is the cycle of abuse, ladies and gentlemen. If you are blindly obedient you are allowed to exist. One wrong move and you will be punished, whether verbally or physically. And never forget the old "If I can't have you then nobody will!" Don't give in! Stay strong and stay away from your abuser. Part of me is ashamed I stayed with my ex all those months, but another part recognizes that patience is a form of strength and all those chances I gave him just proved that he is a cockroach of a human being and I did everything I could to bail water out of a sinking boat, but eventually you have to tighten your life vest and make peace with the fact that your best chance of not only happiness but your very survival is safer in the open sea than the ship you once called home.
