05/13/2020
For a long time there was a creativity inside that was undervalued and casted away by the way I treated myself. Many nights of rustling with my inner demons and putting my energy through a web of toxicity sending me downward through the spiral. The energy I was exerting into my addictions was consuming the possibility to have space for anything else. As I sit and contemplate my life and experience after I made the decision to remain clean I am flabbergasted by what kind of creativity that was dormant. Not in any way shape of from that pertains to a business more of just what kind of life was waiting to surface after the dark.
I’m writing this message to convey how much value we all have hiding behind our shadows, whatever form they take shape in. This goes to anyone out there who feels they may not be reaching a possibility and potential unforeseen to their own eyes. I remind myself everyday that it has been the people who have inspired me, acquired tools of health and a willingness to stand tall in the face of adversity that made all the difference.
To everyone out here not feeling 💯 especially is you are struggling with addiction or alcoholism I’m here holding space. If you feel like nobody is here, I am, message me anytime. It was the kindness of strangers that showed me how to live a different way and I’m forever grateful to pay the wisdom and vision forward.
This is also why I have such a love for recycling anything in a tangible form to amplify the beauty we deserve to feel. ILife is too short to be treating ourselves and our planet like trash.
This is a look I created for the virtual fashion show that went down on the festival live stream. This outfit was 💯 recycled clothing and accessories I found in the thrift stores of Ventura. Upcycled the pants with a frontal cargo and patchwork from the sleeves of the vest. The vest has a tiger hear sewn into it with a pocket underneath it for snacks. It was an honor to be able to not only be invited but to showcase this along side of such incredible and wonderfully talented creative beings. A special thanks to and for seeing me 🦅