Maurice McFadden Books

07/01/2025

Poison Myself
By Maurice McFadden
Excerpt From Darkness, To Deliverance

I poisoned myself…
Not just my body,
But the hearts of those who loved me most.
I fed my demons with liquid lies,
Swallowed the smoke,
And let it rise
Until it clouded every truth I used to know.

I called it relief…
A little escape.
But every sip
Took me farther away
From who I was meant to be.

I hurt them.
God, I hurt them.
Looked in my mother’s eyes and saw disappointment
Dressed in tears.
Heard the crack in my daughter and son’s voice
When I missed another birthday
Because I was chasing the bottle
Instead of their smile.

I poisoned myself,
And the venom leaked
Into my words,
My promises,
My home.
I became a stranger
Living inside my own skin,
And the reflection in the mirror
Stopped calling me by name.

But I survived…
Somehow.
Grace carried me through nights
I shouldn’t have lived.
Mercy held my trembling hands
When I begged for one more chance.
And God…
God didn’t give up on me
Even when I did.

Now I’m clean,
But I ain’t spotless.
Still got scars
And memories that sting.
Still got apologies I haven’t earned back yet,
And bridges I’m slowly rebuilding,
Brick by painful brick.

But I’m here.
Standing.
Breathing.
Choosing healing over hiding,
Truth over temporary highs.

I poisoned myself
But I won’t anymore.
I’m choosing life,
Love,
And the long road home.
🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

06/08/2025

From Darkness To Deliverance coming soon

06/06/2025

In From Darkness to Deliverance, Maurice McFadden shares a raw, unfiltered journey from the depths of depression and addiction to the light of healing through faith. Trapped in a cycle of alcohol abuse and suicidal thoughts, he found himself spiraling toward a hopeless end—until God stepped in.

Through powerful reflections, real-life experiences, and unshakable honesty, Maurice reveals how faith, love, and divine intervention pulled him from the brink. This memoir isn’t just about survival—it’s about transformation. It’s about finding purpose in pain and hope where there was once only despair.

Whether you’re in the struggle, walking beside someone who is, or simply searching for a testimony of God’s grace, From Darkness to Deliverance offers a message that light can break through any darkness—and healing is always possible.

12/17/2024

Dear God, I wanna take a minute, not to ask for anything from you. But simply to say thank you, for all l have.

12/07/2024

A Brother’s Testimony: Raw, Relevant, and Real

In his new book of poetry, A Brother’s Testimony, Maurice McFadden has proven to be a good poet and, most importantly, a good apostle. The book cover rightly acknowledges that McFadden’s language is “Raw, Relevant and Real.” A similar voice to the Book of Psalms, this hard-edged poetry colle...

12/07/2024

In "Kings, You Are Not Forgotten," a collection of powerful poems, affirmations, letters, and short stories, a group of amazing kings come together to uplift and inspire those who may feel forgotten or imprisoned, whether in physical cells or in the darkness of their own minds. These authors, whi...

12/07/2024

Blessings Are For Dogs Too

12/07/2024

Blessings Are For Dogs Too Coloring Book

12/07/2024

A Brother's Testimony: Raw, Relevant, and Real

12/07/2024

With words that edify, entertain, and provoke thought, Strength Like Yours gives its reader a personal eye view into the life and times of a modern-day black man with sensibilities that are solid, traditional, innovative, urban, culturally and spiritually conscious, and always real.

11/12/2024

MINISTERING SPIRITS

Then an angel appeared to Him from heaven, strengthening Him. LUKE 22:43