04/02/2024
The power of three will set me free! 3️⃣
Absolutely every aspect of my life has gotten better since I quit drinking. No more hungover parenting, sick mornings, days long headaches. No more forgotten conversations and confrontations. No more pressure to hide my habit from family and friends.
Three years ago today I decided to take a big step for me and my daughter. After a domestic violence incident that involved the police and put me in a wrist brace and my foot in a med boot. After hurting and destroying some friendships that I held dear. After worrying my family and friends. I made the decision to get sober for many many reasons, but it's not just as simple and saying "I quit drinking". There is some massive work that goes into living the sober life.
I had to really evaluate the people in my life. The people who kept bringing alcohol into my house even after I wanted to quit, the people who would tell me that I'm just taking a break, not actually quitting. The people pouring alcohol down my throat in the hopes of me forgetting who I am and what I'm worth and therefore would stay dependent on them. I cut all ties.
I now live a life I don't want to run and hide from. I no longer look in the mirror and hate myself. I hear from my family and friends all the time that they're so proud of me for making the changes necessary to better myself and my life.
I couldn't be where I am today without it. Without sobriety my life would have been over. I'm glad I made these choices for me. It's still hard work, and it's work that I have to do every single day. Repairing friendships and building trust back, getting my health straightened out, doing the work in therapy to face my past and my mistakes. Avoiding places that encourage me to drink, cutting toxic people out. And investing in myself, in the life I want, in my relationships with my children. This winter has been the toughest I've had in a while, but I didn't pour the whiskey.
So here I am, raising my mug of Earl grey! Cheers to 3 more years 🫖☕🥳
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