01/15/2024
It’s been a hard season. Christmas was hard. Sometimes the most wonderful time of the year brings tears. I love Christmas and Bryce loves Christmas! We have matching Christmas vacation pjs for our family! But it was just a hard one due to illness. It was my first Christmas not in my parents home. It makes me so sad my mom loves Christmas so much and she didn’t get to do all the things she loves, like decorate and bake with girls etc! However, we made the best of it and she was happy to see her grandkids. I carried the torch and hosted 22 Ericksons and we had fun!!! Kids had a ball seeing cousins and a true family reunion with all 22 of us in Dallss for Christmas which I don’t know that has ever happened! So there’s so much to be grateful for!
However, Grief is weird it hits you in waves you just don’t even know are there. Like tonight this current wave is that my moms still alive but she’s not with me as I do my daughters hair for cotillion. I miss her I wish I could call her to ask what’s shoes to wear, etc, etc, etc. But she has no phone anymore. Elaine would be so proud of Claire! 💗💗💗 Claire looks more like her grandmommy in my opinion than I do! She’s a blond Elaine they have the same smile and lips and kind eyes.
My mom, biggest cheerleader and sister in Christ and most of all my best friend. I miss her every day, but I can’t go there every day. It’s heartbreaking!! Then we got Covid!😩santa claus abd all the germs came to town and we got Covid for Christmas but we didn’t even know it?!? Bryce went to Dr with chest pain on Dec 23 probably Covid related, but we are not sure then it hit my dad. And then it hit me. It’s been a very long season of sickness in the midst of lots of joy! My kids getting see Colorado and real fluffy snow for the first time was amazing!!! 💙❄️❄️❄️💙and lots of joy skiing with cousins in Steamboat! ⛷️⛷️⛷️
It was my baby Claire’s birthday on Dec 30th and we celebrated with all her Erickson cousins in Colorado! I loved on my girl. And we pulled off cotillion after a long day with Bryce in grand Pearce at a Volley all tournament.
This made me laugh and I’m choosing joy and thankfulness for ALL the goood that has come amidst the grief. God is always good and always in control. Romans 8:28, Psalm 121 and Psalm 103:1-5