01/22/2017
I got to share a 4th birthday with this precious guy today bc I decided to keep him
MASONS STORY ( Chose life)
Hopefully this helps encourages or makes someone's situation seem easier.
In May of 2012, my life was forever changed, I for the first time of my life. Didn't start my period, and after a month of it being late in June of 2012 I walked into a Walgreens and waited Til I could talk to a women attendant and took a pregnancy test. I remember being in the bathroom alone terrified because of other things going on in my life at the time, but once I peed on the stick it instantly said pregnant, and I was flooded with emotions and excitement was no where in the lineup. I went back to my moms in Beebe arkansas and she was cooking super and I defiantly didn't feel like eating I went and got in the bed and started looking up ways to have an abortion while crying my eyes out knowing it was wrong. My boyfriend and my sons father at the time lived in Alabama so I called him and told him and he supported me no matter what decision I would make. I didn't tell anyone else I was pregnant, I didn't want anyone to be able to talk me out of what I thought for sure I was going to do. I would do it at planned parenthood in Birmingham Alabama and I had to make it to right weeks before they would do it. So June 12th on a Tuesday would be the first date available . I set a 9 o'clock appointment . I was told I'd take a pill and start my period.
My brother was actually going thru a court case at the time and I didn't wanna add additional stress to my parents plate and I also wasn't married and I didn't want others to know that I didn't do things the right way , in my mind that was always a goal I set for myself.
June 10th, 2012
My dad came in from Auburn Alabama at midnight which was Sunday morning two days before my scheduled abortion, Ed Christian of auburn my friend and my brothers teammate had been shot and killed at a pool party . It was a senseless situation, as we'll as a turning point in a change of events, the next morning hurting from the news we got up and went to church, my preacher brother Paul at friendly chapel in north little rock was preaching about all the parents that had went on to heaven that year but had left a Godly example on their children's lives and the next question was my saving grace he asked what would your children say about you and how you taught them, and as clear as someone carrying on a conversation with you God asked me, YEA TIMBER WHAT WILL YOUR CHILD SAY ABOUT YOU, I knew from that moment forward an abortion was not an option, and I'm not going to lie it would have been the cheap alternative. I didn't go to the doctor til I was at 24 weeks pregnant for the first time. We knew mason was a boy and I was extremely depressed and cried thru the first appointment. Got home and still had not told anyone. Another month went by and I finally shared with my grandma that I had missed my period. And she than proceeded to tell my mom and dad. Than I realized they were a lot more proud of me for choosing life for my baby than they ever would have been with me having an abortion.
The point I think I'm getting to is that what sometimes we don't know than we realize down the road. MASON Christian (named after Ed Christian) is the best thing that has ever happened to me my best friend , the best love you will ever find is bringing another life into this world. ABORTION HAS TO STOP, I have straddled the fence on having one I understand the reason the debate is real . However could you forgive yourself I knew I wasn't. And I know God would have but I don't think I could have let it go. My life is so much better now doing things with him than going and doing things that weren't even that great compared to the love he provides me heart with each and everyday I'm so much better because God choose me to be his momma:)
It could have very easily went another way, I believe because I listened to my heart and knew God I got a divine appointment and God intervened when I needed him the most. God's plans for us are much better than the ones we set for ourselves:) if you ever need someone to talk to because this is where you are call or talk to me. I'm so thankful I had my support system of my family couldn't have made it without them. Share this , and tell others because if I get to bring to one more girl what God brought to me by showing me what It was like to keep my baby it'll be worth it:)
There is no fear in love but perfect love cast out all fear.
