01/05/2025
We ventured out to the movies today. We forgot his 5:30 medicine… the movie was too long for him and he was having trouble staying seated 30 minutes in. I problem solved and took him to Barnes & Noble while Josh & Nova stayed and watched the movie. We found some legos and new books and went to sit down at a restaurant next door where I could have a glass of wine and he could do his legos. After starting his legos he started to cry… he was regretting not staying to watch the movie. It was a small restaurant and he was the only kid in the whole place. Everyone was staring… he’s not a quiet cryer! The waitress was kind and shared that her daughter is on the spectrum. She told us to leave the legos and my Prosecco, so we did and went on a walk. He couldn’t calm down and insisted on Dada. We walked to the theater. Josh and Nova left the movie 3 minutes before the ending and Josh carried Felix back to the restaurant. Nova was mad (understandably) that she missed the ending. We got back to the restaurant to clean up the legos and head to the place we had reservations for all 4 of us at. (We were in a big plaza / shopping, dining, retail… for reference.) When we got back Felix didn’t want to leave. He had a small tantrum and again we had all eyes on us. We finally convinced him to pack up his legos and we were walked to our dinner reservation. We sat down, poured out his legos, then realized we lost a piece during the transition. We reassured him that we had the same piece at home in his Lego table but that didn’t help. Josh got bit. I got hit and scratched. Felix crawled under the table. His food came but the PB&J wasn’t on the bread he likes so he ate my sushi roll instead. The soy sauce tipped and spilled on my new Christmas Anthro sweater and we left for home. Exhausting. Felix asked if we were mad at him…. so many emotions. We have a complex kiddo and a complex family and some days it’s really hard. We should have remembered his medicine. We shouldn’t have tried to take him to a long movie. We should have gone home after the first melt down. So incredibly thankful for this sweet boy of ours but being a parent of an exceptional child can be so lonely 🤍