03/18/2024
I kinda want to set the stage on this one, so follow me for a just min here. The last 18 months for has been a ride, some highs, a whole lotta lows and a few fleeting moments of, I'm done and I'm out, if this is my new life I have desire to live it. First my right hip surgery, which went epically well! Record healing time and thought I was back! Then the following summer a right shoulder surgery, that turned into an epic low, I wasn't healing, my dr. nor my surgeon could tell me why, all I knew is something wasn't right. I even decided throwing my sobriety out window was worth the risk, but before I pulled that trigger (both literally and figuratively), I tried to "fire" my physical trainer who looked me in the eye and said, "You're not getting rid of me that easy"! So, I called a mental health coach, a nutritional health coach, my dad, who is sometimes more of a sponsor than he gives credit for, alas none of it was working. Finally one Sunday morning, I let everyone else go to church and I just stayed home in my cave where I didn't have to talk or socialize with anyone, I finally got down on my knees and I prayed that God would either show me why I was mentally losing this fight or just end it for me. That night, I got up in the dark and puked blood until I finally passed out, my body shut down and 911 had to be called and I got an all expense paid trip to the local ER, where I stayed a couple days and found out I had not 1 but 3 ulcers that had been bleeding in my stomach for who knows how long. Sooooo many people reached out with kind words and amazing show of support, but it was those who just looked at me like, "what's the big deal"? Frankly it's none of your damn business, but since you asked, here's the best message I have for you, Nobody cares, work harder! Now here I am, 18 months later training for a 2 week DIY hunt in Alaska for caribou with Jeffery Conti and Chad Lampano !!
PSA: Do NOT EVER EVER NEVER EVER, tell your physical trainer to stop taking it easy on you and turn the heat up. I'm sure she read my log for the night that night and said, "Hold my beer"! 🤣🤣🤣🦾🥷 thank you Nanny Pat for not letting me give up and reminding me humility still n