18/10/2020
As I walked this almost empty street, I felt lost and sad and hurting.
It seemed strange to be here, to walk here, almost alone. Like it was telling people who walked passed by here the idea of painful fading. That it was real and was happening.
Everything was starting to fade. And, people were starting to disappear— what's left were their footprints and the noise of their usual chitchats that had marked along this strange road, where I knew I was, but I still felt lost.
I didn't exactly know what part of its fading process was hurting my guts. All I was thinking was that this exact street was usually busy with people going to their everydays and I didn't know their names—we were just mutually passing in this street like it was our only place to meet. It sounded romantic, but it didn't feel the same. But, I was still sad to walk without people whom I used to passing by. I didn't get to know them, but I was missing them.
Perhaps, what wrapped my guts with pain was either the notion that I was left alone, and that people left me in our usual spot, the place we usually meet, but nobody had come to meet me this time. Or, just the idea of unfortunate fading and going and just passing by...without coming back anymore. Those were unforgiving.
But, I would still want to walk here, right this exact street. I would like to be here when people come back and walk along this road, again. I would seemingly be enchanted to have people passing by while I puddled my feet for a walk in this side of the road.
I didn't know for which reason I was settled with that idea. I just felt happy to walk along the business of the road—not just with the roaring of various engines, but also the noise of everyone's chitty chats and some footprints—that sent calmness to my soul.
It's just so great to know that you were never alone making your ways. It felt comforting and settled to walk your life with people, because it was an indication that you were never lost alone.
It was okay to feel lost with people, than to feel lost alone. It was a double misfortune and was sad and much hurting.
Be lost with somebody.
