01/05/2024
I'm a closed book, at least that's what they say. Men who couldn't make sense of the madness. Friends who found scrunched up pieces of my story.
So, I've come to define myself as such. In retrospect I am fairly open, yes the words are tiny, writen in a long lost language, yes my pages are forever bathed in sunlight, yes you might go blind trying to read me. Yes you might loose your mind trying to decipher the words on my parables, trying to understand the mind I incase. Yes I don't quite know me either but that's because I too have forgotten the language on my skin.
Carved years ago, young me tried to save memories so I would never forget, when she noticed her life tales slipping she took a blade to the skin, a mark for each tale. But I don't understand, I can't comprehend the meaning behind.
Most of the words are smudged I can't make them out and those I can scare me. What did she go through, why did she forget? And do I want to remember? Those memories locked in a case hidden somewhere in my mind, do I want to find it? Give meaning to the scares that cover my skin, the scares I inflicted, the marks I made for art.
Can I built a time machine and ask her, does she still remember? Does she hate me for forgetting her face, her story, her life... Our life.
Does she hate me for locking her up?
Is it too late to bring her back or is she lost somewhere in the space time continuam far from my reach. Is she safe, from me the one person that betrayed her.
Or she finally dead.
By : Ntšepase Makara, I am.