Bec’s Brain Dump

01/05/2024

01/02/2024

Photo dump 💕 Little late but happy New Year 🎊

12/21/2023

SECRET SANTA time ‼️🎅🏼🤫
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I have over 1K Friends. You don't ever know who might send what 🤷🏽‍♀️

Even if it's just a $1 or $5! I love secret Santa and will be truly grateful for my Blessings 🙏🏾 🎁 🎄 I would love to see my friends and family get blessed this Christmas as well!!!!Merry Christmas 🎄 🎅

11/03/2023

Knowing that you have a warm place to come home to should be enough for you to be thankful……


It wasn’t until just short of a week ago that I found out that we wouldn’t have a place to stay after the first of the month.

I’ve really debated on writing this because I don’t want people to feel sorry for us. We got ourselves into this situation and our back up plan failed. We made mistakes along the way and here we are. But it’s really making me thankful for what I do have. My girls have warm beds to sleep in at their grandmothers. We have plenty of food to eat. We have plenty of clothes, blankets, and for now, we have a warm place to stay and a roof over our head. Sure the couch/floor is not going to be ideal but it will do for a couple weeks until we can get in somewhere. And we are very thankful for the one friend and her fiancé who has offered that to us. I’ve also already contacted plenty of resources but there is waiting time.

Im not posting this to get charity. I’m posting this for awareness to a crisis not only for me but for so many others. You never know what someone is going through and I know actually a few people who are also homeless right now. There is a crisis going on and we need to do something about it. The least we can do is be kind to each other.

On another note, I’ve finally been able to completely get off of Effexor and Buspar and started on a low dose of Prozac. (I used to take Prozac in Highschool.) This is HUGE for me. I thought I was never going to be able to get off of Effexor. So far on the Prozac, I notice that I’m more stable despite the stress. I feel like my normal self again.

I’m not quite sure how to wrap up this post other than to tell you two things:

1. Always be thankful. Not only in this season, but every season of your life.

2. You never know what someone else is going through so always be kind.

🙏

09/14/2023

My website is currently down due to financial problems with me being out a week with Covid. So I’m going to do a little update here…

If I’m being honest, It’s hard for me to be this vulnerable again. But here we go…

I’ve stopped taking my prn anxiety med, my sleep pill (hints the 4am post), my “bipolar” med, and I’ve cut down my venlafaxine by 75mg. I also cut down my other anxiety med by 15mg.

I’m feeling great. I could be manic but it hasn’t done me any bad yet. 😅🤣 or I could actually just be finally doing better. 🙂🙏🥺

Ive done all of these things slowly then finally stopped when reaching the lowest dose. I’ve done most of those things without the help of my psychiatrist because he was rude to me at my last appointment. Then I had to miss an appointment and now he won’t see me again til mid October. But won’t refill the sleep med or prn med til I see him again. Same guy that had his nurse tell me to stop taking one of my meds and it threw me into serious withdrawal. And when I asked him about it, he said well I never gave that order. But it’s whatever, sorry for the rant. I can do this. I am doing this. 🙂😁

Note: I AM going back to see my psychiatrist at my scheduled appointment. And I do go to counseling once a week to help manage my mental health. I am also continuing some medications. Right now I take the following:

Morning:
Venlafaxine 150mg
Buspirone 30mg

Bedtime:
15mg buspirone
10mg abilify (mood stabilizer)
Birth control pill

You guys I am ECSTATIC that I don’t have to take so many pills anymore! Please pray that I continue to utilize the tools that I’m learning in counseling so that I can continue to taper off my meds and live a normal and healthy life. 🙏❤️

If you’ve made it this far, I’ll also tell you that I have a new job making really good money. It’s stressful but I still love my job. 🙂 I have some pretty cool coworkers too 😝

Anyways, I’m gonna wrap it up for tonight. See you next time!

07/24/2023

Good morning y’all! ❤️🙂

I handled the first couple weeks of tapering off my meds pretty well, but after that I slowly started isolating myself and in turn making myself depressed to the point of being suicidal. But I am so lucky to have a great support system to help me when I am struggling and I’m bouncing back just like before. I’m not letting it stop me or hold me back.

I also have been given my medical records from my new psychiatrist who has written my diagnosis as

-History of Borderline Personality Disorder
-Bipolar II Disorder
-Panic disiorder with agoraphobia
-ADHD
-History of PTSD, Major Depressive Disorder, Anxiety

WOW. Talk about the definition of crazy. (Jk that was a joke about me btw) 🤣😝🤪

But anyways, I still have hope that I am going to make a full recovery and my mind WILL be HEALED and I will live a normal life someday.

In other news, I’ll be going live sometime today, hopefully get to show you guys some baby bunnies, and give you ALL of life’s updates cause you know there’s always something going on in my life 😅🤣

love y’all!
Rebecca 🥰

07/07/2023

Hey guys! I know I haven’t made a blog in quite some time but I’m hoping to do that today or sometime this weekend! 🤞 In the meantime, if you are friends with me on my personal account, I have live videos of updates on there, and I’ll be going live at some point today to give yet ANOTHER update, just because so much is happening and going on.

**This live video will be *ON THIS PAGE* not my personal Facebook account. So please follow the page so you can find the live video!

06/07/2023

Hey guys 👋 I haven’t posted in a while because these med changes have got me all messed up 😅 I’m powering through one hour at a time though 💪 I’ll be working on a new blog this weekend about what’s been going on around here! Stay tuned! ❤️

06/03/2023

If I did a 50/50 raffle for those who share/like/follow my page, who would do it?!

06/03/2023

This is what life’s all about 🥰

06/01/2023

I’m making another post about my adulthood testimony. I just think more people need to see it ❤️

**TRIGGER WARNING** **In this blog I will be sharing and talking about alcoholism, r**e, and domestic violence. Thank you.** “In your twenties, you’ll be vulnerable. You’ll love, you’ll break, you’ll fall and also get back up. You’ll learn and observe situations and things. You’ll laug...