04/22/2025
Good afternoon, Friends. After years of work and a lifetime of experience Growing with the Flow~Life After Loss is an actual book and is in my hands as a finished product. Its surreal and bittersweet.
Losing my Daughter 3 years ago ~ experiencing that life shattering devastation ~ is something I didn't know if I could survive. I almost didn't.
My Sons are what kept me here and they are my "why." My loss kick started a healing journey like none I've experienced before and I've been on a journey for as long as I can remember. My priorities changed and my children, who I always said were my number one, actually became my number one priority.
Being the Mother they deserved became a drive and passion. With my loss all masks and blankets of misery dropped immediately and I was left bare and raw and yet exposed in a way that was freeing. The person I used to be died the day my Daughter did and I stood before my Sons as a new person who wanted desperately to mend everything I had broken between us with my unhealed parts.
I was never good at having conversations that I deemed controversial... you know, the kind where I was vulnerable and spoke my feelings clearly. I started having them and would bumble through them "I don't know how to have these conversations" is how I would start and ask if they could stick with me as I tried to speak. And they did. And I am so blessed that they did. I have so much more work to do but I can see the evidence of the work I've done.
I can't guarantee that this book will heal all the hurts but it is a combination of what has worked for me through not only my Grief but in life. It isn't just about tracking emotions, it's also about taking our inventory on a deep level and being extremely honest and vulnerable.
I have other pieces to go along with this book that aren't finished but if you are interested in this book alone (for now) I will have the printer send more of them to me and I can ship them out. I will also be publishing this on Amazon and it will be available there in the next couple of weeks.