19/01/2022
It’s Our Anniversary ♥️🔐
There’s really alot that I could say but I’ll try my best to sum it up lol.
Not even in the last year but maybe a year and a half…Life has forced me to grow in certain areas. I think everyone is aware that this period of time will happen eventually. However, I don’t think alot of people know TRULY how hard it really is. Letting go of opportunities, people, habits, mindsets, etc…. As someone who was comfortable in my routine off all these aspects, it made it seem impossible to do anything different.
My last relationship wasn’t all bad but it pushed me to find ME. It pushed me (of course, to grow in the areas in which I lack but) to really be comfortable in my own skin. I tell my loved ones often that I really believe I’m an alien lol. I’m a loner, the thoughts and words that come from me are usually not the norm for our society and I really don’t care to be different lol. But no cap, it can make you feel like an outcast at times. So I had to REALLY become comfortable being Chris. After this, I developed a certain mindset: To not deal with anyone platonically or romantically that cannot 100% accept me. I also developed a mindset to have an amazing friendship with the next woman I chose to pursue.
Long story short, not only have these expectations been exceeded, I have never been forced to grow this fast before. Here’s what I mean. When God started to show the fruits of my requests (music, family, friends, girlfriend, life PERIOD), it really started to expose me. Some of the levels I was asking for, I wasn’t ready for. And it started to expose the very things I was lacking in. When I tell you, it’s been nothing but God himself helping me. But it would be unfair to not celebrate my rock here on Earth.
Babe, in so many words, thank you. I really don’t think you know how much of an impact you’ve had on me. We’ve had our moments but this year has taught me much more than any other year. You’ve taught me grace, forgiveness, patience ( MY GOD 😂😂)…too many things to name. And it’s all thanks to you. I love you. ♥️
