15/02/2019
This quote has been stuck in my head for the past few months as I have been really struggling. Last week I finally had spinal surgery, after suffering with chronic back pain for a long time. I had been trying to push through the pain in order to keep my life on track, on ridiculously high levels of pain medication, but ultimately I couldn't manage and had to give in.
I had to stop working, move in with family and accept the fact that I could no longer cope with my own life. During this time I had some very dark moments, times when all I could do was take each hour, each moment at a time in order to keep the panic at bay. My life was falling apart all around me yet there was nothing I could do about it.
But, the good news is, the surgery was a success.... thank God! I'm now in recovery, watching lots of Netflix and planning my next move. I hope to be back in my own home with my little girl by the end of the month. And then be back working by the end of the following month.
As I lie in bed right now, I can hear the birds singing and I feel hopeful about the future.
Thank you to my amazing family and friends....I could not have got through this time without you. β₯οΈπ»π¦πΏπΎ
Yes, I have struggled, but I have not quit!