13/09/2021
Gosh it’s been a while!!
*LONG POST WARNING*
This is a difficult post for me and not one I thought I would have posted a year ago, but with courage comes healing.
At the beginning of 2020 I was the at the pinnacle and peak of my fitness. I felt confident, had a VERY healthy relationship with food and exercise and I really enjoyed my healthy lifestyle and being a good role model for others looking to grow on their own fitness or mindset journey.
Even early covid and gym lockdowns couldn’t get me down, if anything, it spurred me on more. Just as everyone was coming out of lockdown in Tasmania in mid 2020, I was floored, literally by a raging appendix and had to have a emergency surgery which meant I couldn’t exercise to my pre-surgery capacity. I ended up in my own lockdown and all of my coping mechanisms were stripped from me.
I didn’t realise how much I attached my identity to the ability to exercise and initially post surgery I recovered well and got back into my exercise ASAP, but then the reduction in my fitness caught up with me mentally. I have realised over the last few months that at this time last year, I masked my true emotions and began the mistake of lying to myself instead of processing what I was truly feeling.
This time coincided with starting a new, challenging work role and I let work consume me and long hours along with a reduction in my self esteem physically, I took a knock to my stamina for staying as fit and healthy as I was.
I let my mental state slip and I completely let my good habits slip. In July 2021, I was exercising only sporadically between my work commitments and was JUST about mentally ready to kick my own butt and get back into my fitness and healthy lifestyle again and another injury, this time my knee saw me floored again. Never take anything for granted. Especially walking!
The preceding 8 weeks have completely changed my mindset about myself, my identity and my worth. I have relied heavily on my coaches, colleagues, my husband and our family to help me through.
Fast forward to now, I am 3.5 weeks post knee surgery and I have gained alot of weight over the last year after not eating right, skipping meals, and not training as much, or at all over the last 8 weeks I am not feeling the best physically. My energy has been low, my independence was challenged and and I’ve been working through some intense emotions as well as physical recovery of my knee.
I am now ready to commit to a new ! I’m excited to feel fit, healthy and sexy again.
I have committed to my latest 16 week challenge, and while taking these before photos did not make me feel good, I am going to enjoy saying goodbye to the extra 20kg on the woman in these photos and hello to another level of myself. But moreso than just dropping some weight, is the reclaiming the feeling of feeling well in my body and increasing my energy again.
This will not just be a physical challenge, but mental also as I will need to ensure a healthy work life balance and rehab my knee injury post surgery.
Watch this space. is a go! 🔥